Oct 14

Today i realised how much ppl can be difficult when they want to be. See the thing is a lot of my job is to get things done by other ppl. Especially the creative ppl. Sometimes they can put up such a show of attitude. Today they did it to me saying that why must i wait so long beofre briefing them, and that i have been keeping this for so long and giving them little time, and that they will not take responsibility for it and that nothing is ready for them to do work. Its as if we are asking them for a favour, when it their bloody JOB

All my life i have been used to abuse and being ragged and usually never let it bother me. But of late i feel that i cannot take this anymore. My blood begins to boil and i get all hot and start seeing red and really feel like letting it all out. My head starts to hurt and it feels really horible. And whats worse is that after wards i cannot concentrate on anything else. Even now i feel like breaking something. Had a meeting right after this incident, and felt i was not my self and did not do as good a presentation as i am capable of. i guess i need to find a way of chilling.

All my life i have been used to abuse and being ragged and usually never let it bother me. But of late i feel that i cannot take this anymore. My blood begins to boil and i get all hot and start seeing red and really feel like letting it all out. My head starts to hurt and it feels really horible. And whats worse is that after wards i cannot concentrate on anything else. Even now i feel like breaking something. Had a meeting right after this incident, and felt i was not my self and did not do as good a presentation as i am capable of. i guess i need to find a way of chilling.

Last weekend we spent the entire night in mosque...praying. Cuz of the entire month, that particular night was the most precious. But the coolest thing was that after such a long time i saw the sunrise. I thought it was just so amazing. Colombo looked so beautiful. And the sky was heavenly. I made up my mind to try and wake up to a few more sunrises in my life. Its just that i am so not a morning person and can never wake up early. My belief is that mornings are for sleeping.

I just heard that there are 2 rainbows in the sky near havelock road. It must be really amazing. I love looking for rainbows. Do you ever stare at the sky. Sometime i love to look up and make images with cloud shapes. I once saw the titanic, dinasours and even a submarine :)

oh by the way,i saw those two rainbows... matt there was a very defined one and right above it there ws a slighly lighter one...the darker rainbow is the only rainbow i've seen which actually had all seven colors!!! i took two photograghs of it to put in my project...i carry my camera around so that i can photogragh interesting stuff for my project..
i've seen double rainbows before bu thtese two were by far tha best...and the sky was so claer and had this gorgeous dull blue color and it was so beautiful...i was travelling in the bus at that time coz malla stayed after school and i picked him up after classes at the academy...there was this point when we crossed over this large field like area and we could actually see where the rainbow began and ended!!!!! it was beyond gorgoeus..

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Oct 19

"In every real man a child is hiddenthat wants to play" - Friedrich Nietzche

Isnt this a really cool quote... I think the writings of this guy arerealy amazing. You should check out his work on the net when you havetime.

I think that its such a shame that we become adults. Cuz then we loose everything thats amazing abou being a child. Curiosity, fun, beinghappy etc. You know what i mean...

CS Lewis said (and i love this quote as well) in his narniabooks... 'some day you will be old enuf to start reading fairy tales again"... so cool no?

Another frnd of mine wrote once..."'would their be any children ifthere were no fairytales?"

I hated becoming 20. i wanted to be 19 again. I was so scared that ihave not lived my teen years as fully as i wanted to. Not done things that i should do and scared that i wont get a chance to them again.Thats why i never say no to something new.Being a child again. Its amazing that we are searching for somethingthat we once had, when we should never have lost it in the first place. Don't know why i am becoming philosophical. Just ignore theseramblings.

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Oct 10

i hope you dont mind me asking what > ramazaan is all about..is it the birth of Allah?is that why your'll fast and> pray?

I'm no expert on the subject of Ramazan....

Fasting and ramazan

This is the most important month for Muslims. It is seen as an opportunity for Muslims. The opportunity is to be absolved of you sinsand gain reward for all the good that you do. Because in this monththe good you gain is multiplied. It's a gift and not a burden. Fastingis like a fire that consumes all your sins, and cleanses you.The prophet suffered in his spreading the word of Islam. Thissuffering caused God to reward us with Ramazan through a littlesacrifice on our part.

Also this prophets life span was short compared to the other prophetswho lived (before him) for over 100 years. Ramazan gives us anopportunity to gain good, faster, during our short life spans.Fasting is not only about rewards, it's about training. Training your senses� to see only pure and do only good. Even your thoughts,actions, all parts of your body are disciplined. It's not about lackof food. Its about fasting all your sences. Impure thoughts, seeingimpure things etc. Its not only fasting your stomach, but all your sences. It' about what you do in hunger. You do this so that you canfully concentrate on doing good and praying. So that you are notdistracted. It also makes us healthy and controls out diet.After all, you are given 11 months, and God asks for 1 in return. It is a very holy month also because this is the month the quran came down in.

Eid � ul - Fitr

The Eid is a celebration of the successful completion of the month ofRamazan and the fasting. This is a celebration or reward for all your hard work during Ramazan, and of a celebrating the absolution of allyour sins. This is the last day of ramazan, when we eat more yummyfood and wear new clothes and on which a holiday usually falls.

See, the thing is that the english language is not the best. It fully cannot ever translate the meaning of what the arabic word means.'Fasting' is a very simplistic word that does not capture everything isaid about it.

Do you know that because english is so basic, we are never supposed to read the quran in any language other than arabic. Becauseits meaning can never ever be accuratly enuf translated.

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Oct 11

Am i holy?

well.i do think you're kinda holy...but see...i dunno..it depends...but then just coz you seem to be living in the mosque and praying so much,it doesnt really make you holy does it? its what you feel that matters..

See the thing with me and religion is a long story.

I feel unreligious. But at the same time very god fearing. Its like the 2 should not be unconnected, but in my case, i feel they are.My problem is that everything seems to be a hypocrisy. Everyone theppl in it seem to be hypocritical. i am told I must behave in acertain way or perform certain acts if I want to be a 'good' bohra. But i dont do all these things. For ex, praying 5 times a day, orpraing the quran always or so many other small things that i amsupposed to do, but dont even know. To do everything I will have todevote my entire life and all my time fully to religion, So If I do certain things and don't do other things�what's the point?Either you do it all out or not at all right?. What the point of beingreligious to different degrees. for example, we are not supposed toeat some types of seafood, but i do. Does that mean i am a bad bhora?or unrelegious.

The thing is, being a bhora is a really good thing. And i think our releigion is fantastic. Very strict at times though. there is so much to learn. I only know a pin heads worth of stuff. Maybe that is one ofthe problems. I dont' know enough. Or i am not satisfied with what iknow. The thing is, that to learn more is very tough, cuz the info iswith learnered ppl and they impart it very infrequently.

All this is too complicated to think about. Writing it helps tho. I'msorry for telling you everything. I don't know if you can understandenuf of what i am telling you from what i have written. But, i told you anyway.

What do you think?

i just wanted to add on this subect, that the thing that sparked this off was everyone complainging about my hair. I wouldnt mind cutting it, but jsut the fact that i was told i must do that has made me feel rebellious. It also the fact that for the first time i am happy with the way my hair looks, and cutting it will mean thta it might never again look the way it is looking now.

why can't they let us be the way we want. i mean they say we are not supposed to play with stringed instruments. Only god knows why. Out went my chances of ever learning to play the paino. But i still went ahead and learned to play the guitar. YOur not supposed to eat sea createures with shells on them so out goes crabs and lobsters and prawns. See i'm sure there is a good reason for this, its just that i cant help feel that the are old wives tales. I dont understand why you have to do all this to be a good muslim.

i guess it must seem like hypocricy to you...some parts of doing what is told in your religion...but i believe that religion lies in your heart matt...not in whta everyone talks about...God doesnt love you and bless you for what you look like,but for how much you believe and trust in him...its farely hard to honour and love someone you havnt reaaly seen as such,but God knows how hard we try and will bless us according to how much we believe in him..thats why i agree with you about your hair...God knows none of us are perfect either...and i dint think He'd actually reprimand you for your haircut...afterall its not something that effects your faith in Him right?
matt,you also gotta remember that religion is a really ancient thing...so sometimes,some of the things that seem to be implied dont seem very practicle...its upto us to know where and when we gotta act right..that kinda thing...do you get it?
i dunno if i'm making much sense to you...this is what i've been taught to believe in...also what i really think is right....BUT most of all matt,just remember that religion really lies in your heart...not in your hair or your appearance..and i think God knows that too...
i hope i made at least a bit of sense to you matt...feel free to contradict anything you feel is not right about what i said...afterall,i'm still learning too..

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Oct 10

hi...

Oosps, i'v also guilty of not writing to you. Ben concentrating toomuch on work. I had a lazy weekend. Only exciting thing i did was gofor onstage. Did i tell you abt it? It was for the soloists....nattysang. She was good, but i thought generally she is much better, andthat did not come thru. I think she did not pick the best songs. andshe was nervous as hell. MOre nervous than shen she was on the stageof venice. BUt it was good fun, cuz i think the most no of ppl frmvenice were there, and again it waz like a renewion. SHe got a massivecheering squad. My fav singer tho was sheranga. Remember...i spoke abther once. She is just amazing... think.

Work and mosque, getting home and watching TV even if there is nothignon...its becoming a routine during the weekdays. I hate routines. Ieven try and take a different route to work everyday just to avoidgetting into a rut. But work and mosque is becoming a dangerous routine. Must find more things to do. I sometimes think that theanswer to taht is to not get lazy. I tend to get lazy and thencomplacent. Must keep pushing myself. I think the best work comes whenyou have a gun to your head. You know what i mean...Anyway. i amrambling,

I went to the dentist today. I really realy hate doctors...i meangoing to them. A hospital is a place i avoid at all costs. anyway,dentists freak me out too. The last time i went was abt 3 years ago,and i refused to go alone. This time, i forced myself to go and amquite proud to say that i was very brave. I did not scream even once:) It was actaully interesting. cuz through a couple of mirrors, icould actually see where the problem was and saw my cavity. He drilleda bit into the cavity, which didnt hurt like i thought it would Ithink even the doc was surprised, cuz he kept asking if it hurt. thenhe cleaned it out and put in a temp filling. Then i asked him to clean my teeth. He put a tiny tiny bit of some toothpaste and got this tinypolishing thing out and started polishing my teeth. I have to go againto get the lower jaw done and in weeks to get a permanent filling.But it was a fun expereiecne actaully. At least, becaue it didnt pain.

I have to get ready for mosque again. tonight, its a long prayer cuzits a big nite. Its leading up to the biggest nite of the month whichis on sat nite. We have to be up the ENTIRE night praying. We onlyfininsh at about 4 am after which we eat and pray again and go home.

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Oct 3

When i get anngry 1 of 2 things happen.....either i blow up or i clamp up. Usually do the later. Bottle everything inside and keep it until it festers. sometimes i dont let it out and thats bad. I'm not very good with opening myself out, but have only recently realised how important that is. I am unlucky cuz i do not have like a best friend. YOu know, someone who can be my bestest buddy ever. So many ppl have come and gone n my life.

Last nite...my wkend adventures continued. We made another spur of the moment decision to go out after mosque. This time it was some of my bhora frnds. Our first stop was Apollo hospitals. Such a nice place to just chill and do nothing. Staring at all the sick ppl coming in and out. Smelling the aroma of hospital fragrances. Imagining the screams of ppl in pain. Such a nice place to hang out.....YUCK. I hate hospitals. Thoought that apollo wz nice when it first launched. But as we went to vist a frnd of a frnd yesterday, it reminded me of all the reasons why i hate hospitals. He was put in this tiny claustaphobic room with things running out of him. HE had a bad case of incurable asthma. His lung is working only at 27 % capacity. That sounds really scary.

Then we went to this road called barber strt. I had a culinary experience i did not think that Sri Lanka could offer. This road is in pettah. Now youd think that colombo wld be dead at abt 11 or 12. But this road and parts of pettah we drove thru was happenig. It was full of life and ppl and food!!! It was thrilling remined me all over again of india. Of course this was for ramazan. Ppl were chatting, walking about, playing cards, eating and this would go on till 4 am when they eat and go to sleep again. The restaurants to go to is this really cool on on barber strt, Elite, Iqbal. They make pillaows look like a rat infested dump. The food is superb. Get this....i had the most amzing mango lassi ever. (ate at the indian restaurant part of Elite) Then had hot hot garlic narn and mutton masala. But the best revalation was this dish called chicken 65. Amazing name no? Basically batter fried bite sized chicken on a bone. Yum. Then, what was even better thatn dat was this dish called chicken lollipops. Again chicken on a bone, lollipop sized in a sweet and savoury sauce. it was so sos os sos so tasty. I could go on...

Today was another boring day at work. But i was supposed to have this big presentation to Erricsson with boss. But in the 11th hour they cancelled it and did it so offhandly. Had to put in a lot of effort in vain.


I don't have a huge sweet tooth, but have occasional cravings fro something sweet and then a tiny nibble of chocalte is enuf. But sometimes i like to melt chocolate on my fingers and lick it all up.

On girls, i always seem to first look at their shoes. For some weird reason. I think it tells a lot abt the person. I have a thing for footware. then i gues i notice the face and speciifcally eyes. BUt after that it becomes hazy. cuz its hard to notice girls piece by piece. You notice the whole package togehter. The way she walks, the way she speaks and dresses. Her smile, hair...everything. i think you were wearing your matted slippers (or barefoot) and had a twinkle in your eye when i first saw u at ranils studio.

Today was a very good day for me. I just finished a meeting with boss. He was discussing my evaluation or performance. 8 ppl have done an evaluation of me and he had the summery, where they write about me, specifically the good, bad and areas for improvement. I had no problems apart from the fact that i am a bit of a loner. I consider my self an introvert and am not necessarily the best mixer. if i had a choice, i wld avoid crowds. This was seen as a bit of a bad trait, but something where i can always improve on. Overall it was good. I like that boss knows that i do well, cuz i know that i do well. I also like that everyday in the morning as i get up, i look forward to going to work. Cuz if ever a time comes when i feel like i don't want to, then i should quit. The only regret i have is that i have not gone abraod to study...but thats a long story i dont want to cry to you about.

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Sept 28

I began reading a terry pratchett of my own last nite. its called the truth. Very funny. by the way, did you check out the website i told you about on terry pratchett. Pls do. i'm telling you that you must. it will make the stroy you read so much more interesting.
I think i have a frnd who goes to that place on queens rd. It will be close to my office :)
I am one person for some weird reason who loves tests, studying and exams. I love the rush and the feeloing you get after you finish them. Where everyone else is scared, i enjoy it. So weird i am...

I just realised that next weekedn is a long one. I have to do something that weekend. I must go out of town. I wouldnt be me if i didnt make use of the holiday :)

Sometimes work is bloddy curse, especially when you have to depend one someone else. I always believe in the fact that if you want something done, you have to do it yourself. Its bad cuz i sometimes get all the shit [piled up on me. And its worse when you have someone working under you cuz its hard to let go of work. But what choice do you have when you cannot depend on half the ppl here. i'm also a little pissed when no one helps..., i have to go on a market visit on Saturday. Except fro 2 ppl, noone is willing to come and help me...so i might not do it. Which is bad cuz then only this who have not helped me will loose out. i am not doing this for myself. Anyway. That is a bit of what is irking me today and i hope you don't mind if i talk to you abt it.

So what gets you angry? And when you get angry, what happens, what do you do and how do you cool down?

what do i do when i get mad??i blow up BIG TIME!!! my cheeks start burning up and there's this big lump in my throat and i wanna totally cry!!! i normally do...if i get really really bugged..thats the bad part...if i'm in an argument its kinda hard to prove my point if i'm very bugged and i'm crying...i know it sounds silly...
i calm down afert i throw a fit by being alone or talking to a friend where i can cry my heart out and get it over with..if its at home i try my best not to blow up by biting on my tongue real hard so that i wont say anything unneccessary..
if i blow uo and hurt someone,i feel extremely guilty the next moment so i apologize right away..it says in the bible never to let the sun go down without mending a quarrel..and thats what i try to do..

Yesterday i went to mosque and as i said, after mosque sat down for dinner...Dinner is in this huge hall, where abt 500 ppl sit down on the ground in a circle like i explained to you and eat. We sit in the direct line of sight with the high priest. Of all things, he called me up today. I hate when he does this. Imagine if lets say the president of the country calls u up while you are having dinner. Or imagine if you were in the middle ages and the king calls you up. Everyone turns their attension to you. And i am a bit of a notorious case in mosque as well. I do not like to conform. I knew what he was going to tell me. He whispers to my ear that it would look very nice if i cut my hair....the thing is that i was always dreading someone telling me. And if it was anyone else, i would have told that person to mind his own business. But the amazing thing about the priest is that he speaks it so well. Its as if even if he tells you the worse thing in the world, you want to listen to him, because his tone, manner and style is so sweet. And you know that he is telling you from the bottom of his heart. I guess the word is diplomatically. I don't know if i am conyeing to you what it felt like to me well enough. ANyway my issue is that i do not want to cut my hair. Cutting my hair is such a traumatic experience for me (except for the fact that i get a free 15 min vigourous amazing massage for the 100/- i pay). And i had trimmed it last week. I like the way my hair looks right now. So i am thinking of trying to avoid him as much as possible, as hard as i know that will be. Anyway, that is last nights story.

Gotta break fast and leave now. TC and b good

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Sept 26

kandy was so much fun!!! we left home at 5.15 in the morning..my mom's friend's son was a royalist so he came woth us to kandy and got off at the train station where he was meeting his friends..we reached kandy at about 10.30...my dad's friends had come the previous day so they were just having breakfast when we reached the guest house...normally we stay at a hotel like Mahaweli Reach or something but this time everything was full up...we had breakfast at jinadasa in warakapola...it is the ultimate place to stop over during a trip...you've been there right?we had hoppers and halepa..i love halepa!!!
after everyone had breakfast we went to the trinity college farm...it was awesome...my dad can get us into anything that's connected with trinity coz he's an old boy and very prominent in the OBA..normally we go to trinity and my dad takes us on a tour around the whole school..it's a very beatiful school but too many steps to climb!!! there's a gorgeous view from every point in the school...and the chapel is to die for!!!!
anyway the farm was quite cooll..exceptthe stench in the piggery nearly made us all pass out!!! and the pigs were SO FAT!!!! and very pink.. matt the uncle in charge of hte farm let me hold a baby guinea pig and a baby rabbit!!! i took pictures,they're so cute!!! there were lots of animals..sheep,goats.cows,ducks,chickens...we went all around the farm..then this uncle's bungalow is at the very edge of the bangalow overlooking the river...when its the rainy season,the river fills up right upto his house!!!
anyways...after that,we went back and had lunch...thel it was time to go for the match..i painted the trinity colours on everybody's faces,even our moms and dads!!!! then we got into the bus and iput my trinity flag out...we had two flags on each side of the bus!!! it was so much fun...i cheered so much during the match i lost my voice!!!
my wrists were killing me the next day after i had waved the flag around during the entire match!!! we had seats in the grand stand downstairs,right at the back...so all the kids stood on their chairs...we had an awesome view from there!!!
after the match we went back for dinner...we ahd to leave that night coz malla had an exam in school the next morning...it was 2 in the mornong when we got home!!! but nevertherless we had to wake up early and take malla to school...


Kandy sounded super duper. Thanks for the detailed update. Have you been to ambewella farms. The animals there are beyond super. So cute. The goats and the cows. They have rabbits as well. Did not know that trinity had a farm. It must have been cool. I love the sound of it.

I had a busy weekedn too. Helping out for the st.benedicts was fun. On Fri micky didnt come so all that he thought me on thursday i put into practise. Lighting was so much fun to do. You feel like god sitting up there above everyone else. And if you feel like it, you can cut all the lights and leave everyone helpless in darkness :))) Went home late on fri. Sat was the first show. this time i was backstage. It was good too be in control. The kids called me mat aiya. That felt so funny i almost laughed. I was strict with them. Tried to be like siraj and got them to run around anytime i wanted them to. They were so clueless it wasnt funny. Don't know hoe, but somehow the show went off well. The songs they sang were bomb. They even did seasons of love (from rent...the song i played for you on my comp) Some of those guys had amazing amazing amazing voices. Even the chooti batta kids were really good.

after the show went for onstage. A lot of our boys were there playing. Also a lot of our crowd was there as well. Do you want to go this saturday. Chutiya is playing and i can bring or drop you if you need? Anywy the bands were ok. BUt it was fun hanging out. After went to pillaows for dinner. There were a record number of 11 ppl in my car. Wow. We all spent a lot of time there. Kevin was supurb. Keeping us entertained all thru the nite. It was really nice to hang out with everyone.

Then on sunday after the show, micheal, dini, me and dinesh went out for dinner. we treated ourselves to this korean restaurant on havlock road. HTe food was just beyond amazing. And what was more special is that each table has at the centre a gas cooker....imagine that. They cook your food right in front of. The idea is thta you cook it yourself and add whatever you want to to it. The sauces were out of this world. We had sea food soup and barbecued meats. The experiecen was amazing. It was during dinner that we heard about ruins dads death. Chutiya was playing at tantra. Both of them didnt seem to concerned. Went to their place at about 12 and hung out their and chatted. Was really late by the time i dropped everyone and went to sleep.
Oh on sunday i also went to watch superman. I new it would be cold so i took a blanket type huge shawl with me :) It ws really cosy under that. And before you laugh about it, it was a good thing i took it cuz it there i think i felt sick and was sneezing through out the film. I'm not saying its a bad film, but it did not live up to superman expectaitions. Had its fun moments

From sat onwards i had begun fasting. Staying hungry is not really an issue for me. The real issue is waking up at 4 in the morning. Do you know why we fast. By abstaying from distractions such as food and other things, we free up our time and mind for prayer. So that we gain the maximum good from this month which is the holiest of all. Sometimes i feel it is pointless fasting, cuz i cannot do all the holy things that i need to do and so feel that fasting has become a farce. But i must try. Then we break fast after prayers, usually at mosque. After prayers, he head priest talks to us. He teaches us (like a sermon), but its all interesting stuff. there is a lot of stress yesterday on gossiping. Gossiing is supposed to be really bad and a big sin. He said that it is so bad that it is akin to eating your own brothers flesh... after prayers and sermon (sermon is the wrong word for it, but you know what i mean right), we have dinner. It is always an amzing dinner. Last nite was Jalebi (sweet oily thing), chicken in yum gravy, soup and biriyani. This goes on the entire month of ramazn for us.

I finished narnaia last nite. Read the entire last book in a couple of hours steaight. Very sad now cuz the book is over. It was really beautiful. I need to start again on some of my old books. Maybe will read hitchikers guide. Have you read them? They are my fav after pratchett. Even funnier. Just amazing.

My mum is ok. She is slowly going back to hr routine of housework and prayers. She is amzinlgy picky over her house. Everything has to be spotless and in its place. Sometimes it becomes just a little too much for me to handle. but a hell of a lot of life has comeback home. Its gr8 to have her back

Its time i went to mosque too. Talk to you later.

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Sept 21

Meybe when i come over for the flute lesson, i can actually do it and show you. I love to cook you know. The favourite place in any house for me is the kitchen. I'm a great experimentor with food. Love it. eVEry time someone calls me for lunch, i end up cooking it myself :) I have bad news. I wont be coming for bradby. Damn. I was looking forward to it as well. Cuz dininda has got caught up in work, he cant make it and therefore neither can i cuz i was going for it. Maybe next year then. So sad yar. I would have supported trinity. Cuz i like kandy and i like the look of the school. I dont know too much about the school, tho bu i am sure it must be cool. I have to run to the wendt. I'll tell you about it tomorrow. My mum is coming in the afternoon tomorrow. Yayayayayayayayayayaya. But i think my bro will go to pick her and i will see her only in the night.

Bye

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Sept 20

CAme back from a mind numbing meeting where the CEO of mobitel goes on and on and on. Its torute. Where he can finish in 1 hour, he makes it 2. Seriously men, metgs are the most un productive things in the world.

Tonight is the farewell of michael at office. Cuz he is leaving us and joining another company. I have to give a speecha nd a few of us have to do something to him. I think its silly that we have to do something to put him on the spot. If anyone did thta to me, i wld hate it. But anyway we are going to strip him and dress him up as a girl. come to think about it, he mite actually like it. ha ha ha. I also have to give a speech. But i will really really miss him. (in case yo didnt realise it, this is gratiano)

I was to go with dininda to the bradby. But he has still not firmed up the plans. Now i am worried that it won't happen. Must give him a call tomorrw. I would like to go, just to see it at least once. I thought you would go running up on friday....

My mum is coming friday afternoon. I'll give the car to my bro and try an borrow his bike. Ha ha. That would be cool cuz he has a bike that is a fake harley. One of those cool big bikes. Can't wait. Esp to see what my sis has sent for me. I told her to bring lots of food. I love indian food.

Speaking of food. Last nite's food was yum. Simple and amazing. i'' try and describe it to you but will bet that you would never have tasted some of it. First was custard with jelly and ice cream. Then we had something called ravo. This is pronounced like bravo without the b. It is basically "rulan" cooked with jaggery. I like to mix sweet and savoury. So i eat it with a curry. It is amazing. love it. Then we had "dhall, chaval, paleedu" Basmati rice with parippu and chicken masala. The dhal and chicken (dry, but spiced up) is in the bottom layer, and the top layer is plain rice. Then we have a curry called paleedu. It is basically a snake gourd (i think) curry. Finally we had a side dish of "channa Batetha'. It is basically boiled gram with potatoes whiched are spiced up with a bit of tamarind juice concentrate for flavour. The best thing about the food was that my bro did 'dhungar' for it. That means that say for example the rice is put in a big metal container. We make a small hollow in the middle and lower into it a small metal cup that contains a couple of live coals which are smoking. Once that is in place, we pour a bit of ghee over the hot coals so that you get a hell of a lot of smoke. AS this happens, we cover up the container and put a weight on it so that no smoke leaves. Leave that cover for about 10 minutes or less. Once its done the flavour of the smoke gets into the food and the taste becomes divine. It is really amazing flavour.
Do you get what i'm saying?

ME

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I got hold of the R&J Dvd last nite and was watching bits and pieces of it. It is amazing. And its even cooler cus now i know more than half the people who acted in it. When i watched it, i did not. Also they look so young. Chamat for ex is very thin, dininda looks like a kid. Sashane looks the same tho.
I made the most amazing mashed potato's last nite for dinner. There wasnt any food at home and i was tired of doig something more extravegent than that.
For lunch i usually hav a bath packet from a nearby petti kade. She cooks amzing rice and curry in the morning in her little bath kade so its fresh and puts a little extra for us when i want. BUt the prob i have with eating rice and curry everyday is that i get very sleepy.
having a dinner at my bro's house. Going with my dad. I think its my nieces bday so they have called us, even tho nafisa is not in the country. Dont really wanna go cuz i dont talk much to them, but the food will be good. hows ur soul mate. is he relieved that the play is over and he will have more time with you now?

Until later

Me


chamath,thin?????ha ha
i can imagine what sash must'vr looked like though...by the way,now that venice is over are you gonna grow your beard again??and look 'divine'...remember when i said that ????gosh,you must've thought i was retarded no??!!!

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Sept 18 - Day 1 after venice

HI sunshine.... :)

I wanted to mail u when i had a clear head (from the usual monday morning work) and a full stomach. Just went to green cabin for an awesome lunch.
Another movie i recommend apart from RENT is Amelie. It is a french film that is sooo sweet. U will just begin to appreciate life so much. It will remind you abt everything good in the world and you will feel like a kid again. It is just so amazing. Weirdly it was written and directed by the same guy who did ALIEN, but it is worlds apart.
One more film u shd see is "life is beautiful" if you have already not. These are some of my fav films in the whole world.

I just got the best news in a while. My mum is coming back on Friday after about 2 months. I am so happy...yay. I do not have the kind of relationship that you have with your parents, but i really missed her even tho we disagree on so many things and always argue. Whats worse was that she wasnt there to see me perform. I would have got her to see me everyday and no that she would have loved it. Cuz she was always interested in the 'arts' as in music, dance etc. But when she was small her grandparents and uncles neer let her do it saying it was not for girls. (she went to bishops by the way). shit i want to curl up and wallow now :(((( Sorry. i'm a big baby. Sorry. I guess its all beginning to sink in. Yesterday and last day and all.


I am quite sleepy cuz on the way to drop some guys, chootiya, kevin, poornima, nayanthi, dinesh etc, we stopped by at the beach, cuz we did not want the day (nite) to end. The beach in the nite is my new favourite palce. I told you that rite. Its amazing just lying in the sand and staring at the stars. We frightened some couple who were necking in the car parked by the beach. That was funny :) Reached home at 4. Then for one hour, i was struggling with those damn flowers.

First of all i had to find a vase. I dont think we have ever brought flowers to our home, so we dont have vases. Not only was it 4 am, and i was tired, there was not one to ask where anything was. So i had to improvise. I found an emty 4 litre ice cream container that ended up being just perfect, tho not easthically perfect. Then i had the worst time getting the wrapping out. There was so much wire and kambi and i could not find the pliers. So i was using my fingers and a blunt sissor to cut it open. its still hurting! then i had to arrange it and that was a curse, cuz some of the stems were short, some were drooping. So i got rid of the short stuff and had to do a bit of arranging. When i got up in the mornig, tho, i must say it looked really nice Brought so much colour to the home. hmmmm...

BUt i actually was thinking, that the problem with flowers, and probably why i do not think giving them is a good idea is that they die. So isnt the whole point of it lost. I think it would be so much better if the flowers that you get, you could plant. Cuz that way not only do u do the envirnment a favour. U make your garden prettier and the gift lasts flor muc longer. I think giving a plant or a tree as a gift instead of flowers is a better idea than giving flowers...what do you think.


TC

PS, I got the R&J dvd. looking forward to seeing that!

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Sept 14

Hi,

I need a favour. Can you teach me how to play the flute. I'll bring one tomorrow. Pls....
Just the basics. I have been searching for someone to teach me far and wide and for so long i have almost given up.
It is one of my favourite instruments also, so its only natural that i learn how to play it.

Excellent,.... thanks

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Sept 13

I wz really bored last nite cuz there was no performance. Can i tell you a secret. I have absolutly no idea how i will manage without the play and i am a little scared. Do you know what i mean. Cuz suddenly i will have so much free time, that i am afraid i will be bored silly. And what is worse is that i will miss everyone i used to see practically daily for so many months. And then i will loose touch with so many ppl and will next meet them only in like 50 years time and then we will laugh and think about the great times we had on stage. Its quite scary and i cannot really describe it by writing about it. Its just a feeling

matt i know what you feel like when it comes to venice...i've been thinking about it for quite some time too...i'm definitely gonna miss everyone just like you will...its almost been a year ever since i joined and now i'm suddenly gonna lose out on it...the last performance is gonna be so hard...knowing that we wont get to do it again...and knowing that i'm not gonna be meeting all my new friends for a looooong time..ouch,i feel like crying right now!!!
but then again matt,things come and go in life and its our job not to get stagnated in one place but to move on...if we just hang on to every passing thing in our lives we might miss out on some of the best things around us..its so hard i know,but what to do..that's life...



I just had a very good hour. I had finished a presentation i have been working on for the last week and reviewing it with my boss. I should have finished it much earlier, but was being lazy. So i was really afraid he was going to scold me fo doing a bad job. But he didnt. He loved it. And thats great, cuz i feel as a whole load of pressure is off me. So i have a reason to celebrate and spend some time doing something more interesting than worrying.

U know a quote that comes to mind everytime something i love comes to an end...."don't cry because its over, smile because it happened" Venice was an amazing experience and its memories will live for ever with me. What is more heartening is that along with the memories, i have picked up some gr8 friends :)

Ice Age 1 & Ice Age 2 are both fabulous. You have to watch it & stitch as well. They are super cool and really funny...ooh...ooh, my fav 2 movies have to be Finding Nemo & Monstors Inc. I just love them. I know what u mean abt the crying. Dont worry about it. everyone does it sometimes. even the most grease stained, hard haerted, tattooed, motor bike riding and chain wearing, rock music loving person would melt when they see stuff like this. (i'm sure they will even if they dont admit it)

I was reading the Narnia books just before performance. I am looking forward to finishing them after actually. I love those books. I read them when i waz a kid and ever since them, it has been one of my dreams to own all 7. Only a month ago i bought it and now i feel as if an impossible childhood dream has come true :)