The Reaperman

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Choice or fate...fate or choice

get up early, get up late, have breakfast, leave home without it, sms frnd that i'm getting late, keep frnd waiting, walk to the galle road, take a bus, have lunch out, take lunch with me, watchmovie, go to work, pray, read a book.......

They say that choices make you who you are. I thought that who you are is decided upon by your fate. So now i have a choice between choosing what to believe. Is is the choices you make that makes you who you are, or is it fate and some other power (and you are who you are no matter what you do).

Is there another trouser leg of time....

thought of a conversation i had a long time ago hanging out at the rowing club overlooking the beire flooded by a nice moon (after the play "My Way". Was talking to one of the most amazing girls i have known about gay people. I was curious to know that if being gay came about as a result of it being in the genes or as a result of social reasons...ie the way and environment in which he is born in. I used to think that it was the latter. That he would be pushed into discoverin this alternate self of his that emerges the more society around him tries to shun it. That it is as a result of what he see around him while growing up. The influencers, the people he hangs out with, the way his parents treated him etc. But what i began to realise is that it could partially be as a result of some genes hidden in his sytem (which could be awoken by society). some genetic reason that may have come from his parents or even before.

So the point is that who you are could not only be the result of your choices and fate...it could also be in your genes or a somethin created by your interaction with the world.

But i think that the bigger point of all this MUST be that what ever you are however you may be created into becomin who you are...you must learn to love yourself. It can be done! Either find your amazingness within you, yourself, or enlist the aid of some one who loves you already. i guess, we must be inding it hard to look within ourselves because we have eyes that face ahead...but thats a silly literal reason not to be able to learn to love who you are. I certainly and firmly beleive that everyone is amazing. That everyone has something to offer me and the world. (this ended up becoming quite a sermon didn't it...)