The Reaperman

Sunday, February 20, 2005

Randome Thoughts

Wonder what this new field called link does. Can experiment later...

My boss walked n a while ago and asked abt a presentation i was supposed to do. i told him i had started on it. I better finish it for tomorrow. damn. I have 2 more to be briefed to me on monday. Current campaigns...Tokyo cement (priority), CFC Avurudu, and whatever else that resulted in the mtg last Friday.

"Too much light can blind you" one of my own ones. Works on a literal as well as philosophical mumbo jumbo level

Do you think our culture is unrefined or undeveloped if you were to put it next to say the french, or the Egyptians or the romans. Even considering our 2500 year history. And considering that we have been so susceptible to foreign rule, dominance, invasion that our culture did not really get a chance to flourish before some other Aryan, Chola, Portuguese, Dutch or British fuckers came and exerted their influence. To think that part of Sri lank has become extinct. Think the vedda's, naga's, dasa's and yakka's. God knows what else. Nowadays i think our traditions of music and dance is threatened, not to mention forests, and animals...but back to culture.What sparked this thinking is, why do we eat in such a messy way compared to say the French with their sophisticated fork and spoon rituals or even say the Chinese. I mean just look at the tea ceremony. Do we have anything like that. What does this mean. That we are simple. Or backward. No wonder that when Vijeya landed, he wanted to civilize us uncultured bastards...

"Aid comes in proportion to the trouble one is in"...

Abt decisions...How can you make decisions. Let alone right decisions. the obvious answer to this is knowledge. But can you have knowledge of the future. No. then how do u know to make the right choice...and how do you know its gonna be rite. Especially when you think that every decision you make is gonna be life altering. Who will guide you? how wld you know if your wrong.Maybe its like pratcet says, that for every choice you make, there is another phase space or another reality where the choice that you did not make is made. The other trouser leg of time. So what ever choice you make in this reality is the right choice, no matter what happens as a result of this choice. Thats one way to look at it. Another way, i guess, would be to just look away!

Do you realize that every one is selfish...starting from our mothers. This was our first lesson in CIM by our great lecturer Adam. It lead to desires, and how everyone wants things that are scarce. (Makes you wonder how the concept of marketing or markets could survive in a world of Buddhists who try so hard to eliminate desire). anyway, as i was saying...every one is selfish. Maybe out of a desire to not get hurt. Cuz we are all afraid of hurt, frightened of the world. Maybe in fact hiding from the world. EG: Arent we at some point afraid of truly being ourselves. Of standing up to the world an saying FUCK OFF. either were afraid of the consequences, or frightened of letting ourselves get hurt. Therfore we hide behind the shelters we have created for ourselves. Behind our spectacles, our jokes, our jobs, clothes, mannerisms. Is the life of an adult all a farce.

Heavy stuff. I know.

Dante

Through me you pass into the city of woe:
Through me you pass into eternal pain:
Through me among the people lost for aye.
Justice the founder of my fabric moved:

To rear me was the task of power divine, Supremest wisdom, and primeval love.
Before me things create were none, save things Eternal, and eternal I endure.
All hope abandon, ye who enter here."


(a simple do not enter sighn would have sufficed over the gates of hell. This is what happens when you get a creative bugger...they right things that normal people would not understand)