It feels good to be sick when you know there are people around to take care of you

another night of wild stampeding horses
across the expanse of my brain
when before me i see
the soft caress o a hand on my forehead
the sweet and gentle pillow of her lap
the music of a murmur
lying back in lovers arms
comforted by the feel of skin against skin so tender
so soft like the breeze through the trees

Are these just hallucinations
or the yearnings of a fever ridden mind

The sickness

My tortoured flesh
Reeling an writhing in agony
twisting and turning
while my spine coils around my anotomy
heads pounding
even my hurts hurting
screaming in pain
without anyone listening
While my fever burns in me
frying my brain
escaping is not an option
surving on a prayer
that a blessed sleep will take over
comforted by the thought
that a sickenss is bearable
if there are people who care

The back gave me warning
But there was nothing to do
my body was sceaming in agony
my mind was numb with fear
wallowing in pain
letting the fever wash through and over
suffering, blinded, fearful and lonely
hoping that tomorrow will be brighter
just not knowing if i'll be able to get through

Who are you...really

I agree that you need to find yourself. to find what your identity is, what niche you belong to. Create your character as it were. BUT i think that finding your self is a life long and life time endeavor. I think if you find out enough to be able to say that you love yourself...to shout out to the world that you are bloody amazing...you have achieved something. i know people like that. I know people who are amazing, but don't accept it as readily i as i do.I thought that i could never love some one else until i could first love myself. I was right. My poor girlfriend had to first convince me that i was amazing, before i found the guts to tell her some thing she already knew...that i loved her.My point is that i should not think that because i don't know myself enough, and because what i find of my self is not great, i will not live my life. Maybe i have got the wrong end of the proverbial stick. Maybe its enough to learn as much about you as you need to love yourself. Let the people who love you, learn and learn to love whatever else that they find out about you. I don't know....this is all very confusing.

Advice is a form of investment

Advice is something you tell others hoping that in the future they will tell it back to you. The advice you give, in my experience is something that you would have told your self if you were in the same situations. But of course, when you get into that situation, that particular bit of advice doesn't make so much sense to you anymore. That's why you would need someone else to tell it back to you. Advice then, is some sort of investment into your future security. Just hope that the person you gave your advice to is still around to give it back to you.

12 Steps To Get 250 Mb Hotmail Inbox

As we all know that Hotmail has been in process of upgrading its free accounts to 250 MB. Some of us have already got their accounts upgraded but most of the people are still having 2 MB of space. So here is a small process to upgrade your account. Initially it will be upgraded to 25 MB and after 30 days it will be upgraded to 250 MB. The hitch is that you have to keep checking your account everyday for the next 30 days i think.

1) Login ur hotmail account and go to options.
2) Go to "Personal"
3) Click "My Profile"
4) Change Country to "United States" Wait for browser to load United states settings.
5) Change the state to "Florida" and zip code "33332"
6) Click "update" 7
) Click "Continue"
8) Go to "Language" and make sure its "English"
9) To preserve your emails in your inbox, create a temporary folder and put all your emails from your inbox into that. I suppose I don?t have to give details on how to create a folder and transferring the mails into that?we all know that don?t we
10)Paste this link in the same browser. http://by17fd.bay17.hotmail.msn.com/cgi-bin/Accountclose
11) Wait until the Screen says you're Hotmail is Closed and ready to be deleted. Click "Close Account".Go back to login page and relogin to ur hotmail account..!!
12 ) Your account size will now increase to 25 MB which a mnth later becomes 250 mb.



Note: Remember to Backup or Store Your Emails in a Safe Place as There is a Risk of Losing old Mails in somecases...But while we tested our data remained safe!. We are not responsible for any loss or Damage caused by the Trick above.

How do you know the world round. Can you prove it for yourself. Or do u believe it only cuz some one told you it is round. How do you know that it is flat and carried on the back of a turtle supported by 4 elephants??? Wasnt there a line in Men in Black where Tommy Lee Jones says something like 1500 years ago they belived the world was flat. 500 years ago they believed the world was round. What will you believe tomorrow?

The entire world and everything we belive in is probably a farse or some giant American conspiracy. Was it not the Greeks who put a round world on the back of Atlas. That means that they knew the world was round way before Columbus did his experiment to prove it to the world in his voyage where he discovered America by accident. These ar thoughts put in my head by those two crazy's Azi and Ramesh. I can't be bothered yet to check my facts.

Moulan Rouge

Is that how you spell it. Just finished watching the movie. Damn, why do romantic movies end up being such emotional onions for me. It all started with 50 1st dates. Weird but true.

"The greatest thing you'll ever know is to love and be loved in return"

Thats it for this blog. Thats all i wanted to say.