The Reaperman

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Choice or fate...fate or choice

get up early, get up late, have breakfast, leave home without it, sms frnd that i'm getting late, keep frnd waiting, walk to the galle road, take a bus, have lunch out, take lunch with me, watchmovie, go to work, pray, read a book.......

They say that choices make you who you are. I thought that who you are is decided upon by your fate. So now i have a choice between choosing what to believe. Is is the choices you make that makes you who you are, or is it fate and some other power (and you are who you are no matter what you do).

Is there another trouser leg of time....

thought of a conversation i had a long time ago hanging out at the rowing club overlooking the beire flooded by a nice moon (after the play "My Way". Was talking to one of the most amazing girls i have known about gay people. I was curious to know that if being gay came about as a result of it being in the genes or as a result of social reasons...ie the way and environment in which he is born in. I used to think that it was the latter. That he would be pushed into discoverin this alternate self of his that emerges the more society around him tries to shun it. That it is as a result of what he see around him while growing up. The influencers, the people he hangs out with, the way his parents treated him etc. But what i began to realise is that it could partially be as a result of some genes hidden in his sytem (which could be awoken by society). some genetic reason that may have come from his parents or even before.

So the point is that who you are could not only be the result of your choices and fate...it could also be in your genes or a somethin created by your interaction with the world.

But i think that the bigger point of all this MUST be that what ever you are however you may be created into becomin who you are...you must learn to love yourself. It can be done! Either find your amazingness within you, yourself, or enlist the aid of some one who loves you already. i guess, we must be inding it hard to look within ourselves because we have eyes that face ahead...but thats a silly literal reason not to be able to learn to love who you are. I certainly and firmly beleive that everyone is amazing. That everyone has something to offer me and the world. (this ended up becoming quite a sermon didn't it...)

4 Comments:

  • I am glad you are writing. I love to see what you think. I remember occassionally being frustrated because it seemed you never wanted to let onto the rest of the world as to how you thought or felt whereas with me the world has no choice. LOL.

    Here's a thought for you:

    Is it possible that there is a string of common thoughts that mark our development through life? If someone has thought A at point B in that person's life but someone else had thought A at a later point - point C - in their life does that mean that the first person is developing faster than the second person?

    This just turned up because it seems to me that a lot of thoughts I used to ponder and have and have dealt with in my teens are only just cropping up in the minds of other people my age around me. Why they are having these thoughts much later on is a mystery to me possibly because in my realm of experience it makes more sense to me to have them in your teens. Or is there just a pool of thought that you sort of mishmash your way through dealing with it at any given time in any given order according to your experience only and dealing with each thought makes you more mature so that at no given time can you determine who is more mature or developed simply due to the fact that you can never know all their thoughts?

    A bit of philosophy for you. What's your notion on all this?

    Miss you.

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:58 AM  

  • Mat, you already know how i feel about choice...we've always had different opinions about it. Well here's the written version.

    What if choice is fate...That every 'choice' you make is actually a result of fate. We'd like to think that life is a buffet and all we have to do is simply make the right choice. Life would be only beautiful if that were so.

    Maybe everyone has a set meal - decided by fate, our choices ultimately add up to this no matter what these choices are.

    Apart from that...even if we made all the right choices or all the choices we wanted...ultmately its circumstance and external factors that decide the outcome of our actions and choices...In other words it was not a choice at all.

    About teenage thoughts...these were one of mine too. But i had a different conclusion then. Maybe
    development and maturity is too abstract and subjective to judge.

    On another trip...Thoughts and maturity depend on experience...The very term experience means - something that happens to you - not what you choose. Therefore even these are not choice but fate.

    A thought...We have absolutely no say on the 2 most important events in our life - Birth & Death.

    Mat, please keep writing. Write, write, write!!!

    K.

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:13 PM  

  • yo dude.... hows it going? isn't it just AMAZING and AWESOME your blogging?
    Have fun then...
    And the way you eat chocolates is just obscene...

    :)

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